Topic: God's love.
Today was a short day, bcos i woke at 1.20pm (which is exactly aft 12 hrs fr now.) I started my day by doing some of my own laundry( haha, i bet u all don kn i can wash n dry my own clothes, well it's my mum who 'disciple' me. She wants me 2be independent since young...)
1 thing i wana thank God 4, is tt he urged me to read his word instd of gratifying my carnal nature. Surprisingly, I actually flee fr temptations, it's e 1st time im doing it! Hurray! It shows tt Im growing. Reading fr e bk of Ephesians, i learnt abt e love God had 4 us, n he wants us to have too. As i was doing Qt, im again touch at how God had loved e Church. Sometimes, i felt really guilty of not livng to his Standards, yet kept sinning.
Aft being refreshed by God, i set off to RC, planning to study b4 Praying to God. Sadly, as RC is a happening place, i cant really concentrate in e beginning. However, e worship was ministering, as it touched my heart (to e extend tt i almost cry, EMMANUEL=God ans to my cry!)
Despite being motivated to dive into bks, i was again distracted by Jon's jokes. Thru e laughing, i realised im quite stressed, since normally my attention'll not be diverted fr jokes, if im really focused on my studies. To make matter worse, i recalled that i tried to clean up RC when i cant solve 1 qns. Maybe, when i wana take a break, i nv like to sit n stone, so i resorted to do some hse keeping, haha quite workaholic nature of me..
Recognising tt i only left wi a few days to my destiny, only accumulate e stress level. So i decided to follow rayson back hm, carrying his Speaker on e way. Although e sharing session seems short, i discovered tt we actually chat until past midnite. Thus, i decided to spent a nite here. Some may inquire y m i so deprived to stay over at ppl's hse.. But, if e stay overs threathened my relationship wi Christ or hampered my growths, frankly i'll stop. So, my leaders do evaluate me.. Seriously, i enjoy poouring out to ray, wat a marvellous listener, one could understand n identify!
In any case, I really appreciate God's love in my life. Although many a time, i may exploited Ur love, do help me to Change.. it was this love tt keep me going, submitting my strong pride.. God, i'll spread ur love to others, it's not fair 4 me to hide it. I need+ought to advertise this wonderful Gift! Once again, today, i tasted more of ur Compassion, how could i contain it anymore?
Lastly, thanks ray 4 opening ur hse to a nusiance like me. Let'skeep watch each other's lives.. Oh ya, now is my sheep's WQ birthday! Happy birthday...
Spurt out at 2am, nitezzzzz
