Today, i realised how naive I was when my classmates gathered together to read a magazine. It was CLEO, a
female magazine. I was disgusted by the contains!
Anyway, my purpose to post is really in lined with the title--Who am i?
When i spent 1 fri nite(17 Jan) wi Gideon at his hse last wk, I felt that that was a turning pt of my life. That nite was also THE night that i experienced Gi's real wrath towads my wrongdoin! I have not scolded so hard at for quite some time. Some how, tears jus flow down my eyes. However, these tears aint tears of sorrow, tears of gratitude, for Gi's Love for me. Well, it's getting mushy here.
I really confessed to Gi a lot of my hidden desires and all those evil thoughts, let alone those filthy deeds!Somehow, I know I have to start opening my closed-up life. Therefore, that memorable night I blurted everything!
The issue with money is very troubling! When it comes to the love for $, many people would turn nasty and evil. I wonder, when would there be a day that everyone remain as innocent as newborn babies, not habouring evil intentions when dealing with finance. I felt that many could because of this particular matter, refused to accept Christ. They may be afraid to surrender their wealth or their evil methods.
My mum is a good example.
Everyday she would nags at me, simply because of the stress faced by my family. Now, she became very calculative. Frankly, I have blown my top on every occasion! I know it is wrong to rebut parents, but the pressure in me forced me to do so. God, please come and help me. Seriously. How can thee be a filial son, yet abiding to the Biblical principles?
What is my identity? Every single day I am bombarded by materialism and worldlism! How can a young man keep his way pure? By living according to Your Word. (psa119:9) May I draw strength from you, Abba Father. That is my prayer.
2nd February 06.
Gloomy Luke
