She's always there for me. Im so dependent on her that i cant imagine life wothout her existence. Yet, to my great dismay, she just abandon me.. N not once but twice.
So reliant on her to the extend that i felt so detached away from this world because she's my source of security and communication. At her Departure, i doubt i could bearly survive effectively. No wonder recently im so tired and absent-minded, without her presence and reminders.. In the past, i would kiss her everyday, bring her along wherever i go. But now, i felt so incomplete without her touch. Sometimes, she make my day by annoucing some beautiful news. However, she would occasionally destroy my day with words. The saddening thing is that she holds a lot of my secrets-- my vain n naked 6 pack pics, memorable videos, encouraging messages, brutally honest confessions, all-time favourite Tennis game, fantastic collection of cars, lengthy contact list, secretive info, yet-to-prove-useful GPRS online service, upbeat songs. Where are you, my pride and joy? K500i.
Now, i have to settle without her! No longer there is lovely music to wake me up daily; which means i will be definitely late from time to time. I had to settle with Uncontactable status, resorted to use public phone n endured the inconvenience resulted.
Undoubtly, i believe i haven mastered e proverb on "Once bitten, Twice shy". On Wed nite, i had to part my mistress-N8310. Even though she is a bit shorter, less pretty or useful, her preformance is still acceptable. To my despair, this alternative wife also divorce me. She just varnished after Track, on my way home.. Im so upset.
Then again, i lost Kai's "Angles n Demons" by Dan Brown today at e canteen. Wow, this really shows how scatter-brained I am!
My own folly indeed discredit me. Without HP, i could not be effective in e KOG. Maybe tt explains e unfruitfulness in yj.. I ought to transform.. How, later is e end of PASSION?
God, why do u allow all these to happen to innocent me, a pathetic, poor chap?
Responding positively, God i promise i would change.
Divided brain cells quoted.
1 Apirl 2006, 2.510am
