I realised tt 'pissed off' is not appropiate 4 e title of my post, but, i really felt this way.
e 1st thing in e morning tt happen is i was once again reprimanded by my mum regarding some financial issues. What a 'great' way to wrecked my day.
Next was, instd of giving thanks to a timely bus, i was quite frustrated by e slow driver. He actually wait 4 every red light n drove passed ALL busstops. B4 i alighted, i remarked to him tt he drove sluggishly! At tt juncture, i felt guity.
Fortunately, i have Alvin to follow me to YJ, while his purpose is to actually crash YJC of all JCs. We talked a bit on Politics (wow, 1 of my best topics).
i pon 2 maths lessons straight then went to library n sleep 4 30min. While ponning, i spent e time crapping n cracking racist jokes. What a way to waste ur life? Well, i do prefer it to e teachers' nagging.
Aft lunch, my eye-candy came to yj!! How i wish i could pon chem jus to entertain her. But i did e opposite.
To my great despair, b4 e lesson can end on a better note, i was HUMILATED by my chem tutor. To clarify matters, i was just conversing with a classmate of mine regarding e regrets i had in YJ. (I planned to tell e gd side, but..)
I mean, why must he correct me in front of P12 and 1 more J2 class? Or cant he talk to me privately, like withholding his tongue? Or even, why is he so protective of YJ, as if i have e power to tear it apart, as if it cant stand under my criticism? How will he feel if HE is going thru wat im been thru?
At e manipulative words, my pride indeed was shattered into pics.. To make matters worse, i try to argue back. Argg, me n my unwise, rebellous tongue. I had no face to face anyone then. Felt very lousy n ashamed. It as if i was been charged with some major crime.
Even as i was re-collecting myself, i was reminded to keep a low profile for some ppl had been gossiping abt me. It makes me so insecure abt myself. Why ppl jus don believe i have no lustful thoughts when i approach gals, i sincerely wana have a friendship n tt's all.
During Jam n Hop, sth miserable happened to me. Being too playful, my naive actions welcome some 'taupoks', tt leads to e loss of my HP. I was very traumatised at the loss. It was my phone, LUKE'S! For once, i felt all my privacy are been invaded..
God i really don understand why my phone must be stolen now. U see, i need $100 odds cash to purchase a Graphing Calculator, a new bus stamp, now a new phone?
I felt really bad, yes just BAD. 50% of me wana accept SW's apology, while e other half wana declare a war! Help me to do e right thing, God. (Inner cry: Save me from this preverse world!)
In despair, Luke
10/3/06
