This another butally honest reflection.
It started out as i wasnt asked to go CTM, i mean at least let me know wat, instd of doing things underhandly, as if i don know wat HE is doing.
Come on, im a hyper-sensitive fellow, wat makes u think tt i cant sense it?
God, i really wana do well in you again. Bcos in e course of my unspirituality, i have either screwed up my life OR destroyed those once close relationship. i really regretted it greatly..
It was until yesterday, at Rayson's hse i finally realised my own folly. I have realised tt i have always failed to build strong friendships, let alone talk abt those relationships, tt will cause others to have emotional entanglement with me..
Maybe i was really a failure in relationship-making.
It was quite rare to realise my silly mistake, given my preide issues.
I have 2 choices, 1st is to sit here mourning; destroying the reputation of those who hurt me!
e 2nd is to seek God n truly start fr scratch and regenerate my spiritual self.
I chose e latter!
God, hey im ready to be used by You!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Help me, though....
Charged-up Luke!
