ARGgg...
I know all of us shld be trained to be highly positive ppl, who r always optimistic! However, i jus cant! It's as if e whole world like owe me or sth!
It all started with my PRE-dominion with CL gals--class! These ppl they arent as interesting, as i deem a PURE chinese class shld be. Instd, these ppl they r very multi-Racial, very harmonious towards those melanine-painted ppl.. Well, i shld for 1 thing thank God for blessing me with a pure class, at least my eyes wont get colourised.. Anyway, over the YJ's lunch table i debated with 2 spiced-up female classmates of mine. We talked abt whether racism shld prevail.. They just ended my day. I wanted to stop, but don wana "lose' to them n also wanted to bring my pt across. Maybe bcos of my hotheaded nature, i just soured a relationship, er correction, 2.
Hiya.. Next is my screwed up spiritual life! Well, it ain't politically correct to type tt, but i AM Wired up.. It's like u r stuck in a very low chair n need alot of strength to pull urself up.. Or ur car has blown/going to blow, but cant start it. Like a yoyo Christian, with no sheep to care, no more commitments. Now i can afford alot of time to do a million things, yet im feeling kinda weak n uninterested in anything.
God, u better start n maintain a revival. If not, i might jus wasted away. Swayed by e worldliness or Godliness, whichever wave is stronger..
My CG is dwindling as e days passed. Right now, every1 just compromise, including me. We aint as Word-centred as before. Placing Everything above God. All commit e sin, none pardoned! Well, i hate it! But as a non CT member, i cant do much. Maybe i shld 'earn' my way into coreteam..
Anyway, gtg n reflect..
Wasted away Luke, 12.08am
