Bittersweet
God is a God of everything. He is also God of paradoxs.
I remembered vivdly that i told God that i wanted to change and move on in life. And to my great amazement, he allow my prayer to come to pass.
On 4 of November, just like other service day, i went down nexus early so as to help Kai with housekeeping. Apparently, he does not need help and have finished vacuuming the whole nexus just when i reached. By the way, i wana complainted. SIEW LUAN made me walked 4 busstops fr Far East to Nexus!
that fateful day, after SOS meeting, Thaddeus finally chose to shepherd me! haah, i mean, i was quite stable b4 tt day. We went PS cafe cartel n ordered 2 slices of cake. Moments after e cakes were served, Thad decided to tel me a very sad truth. When he said we r moving to NW, my heart sinked immediately and i dropped e glass of drink i was holding.
Wel, sometimes whenever we wan to do GREAT things for God, God really think we can really do it. Simply bcos his Spirit is sufficient 4 us. Knowing this truth, i still cant believe my ears. Hence, that day we started gumbling and stuff. until my shepherd remind me that we need to leave on a VICTORIOUS note.
God is a very interesting God. Occasionally, i regretted i made that special Prayer.. But then, i know i am made to impact and influence with my life. Lord, may my life be a blessing to others.
Today, when Debbie finally announces the transfer or restructuring, i witnessed a lot of surprise expressions. It was a werid feeling as i don know whether to look forward or feel depressed for my departure. But then, i wa reminded of the Abraham passage. God sent him to an unknown place, and when Abraham obeyed, he was greatly blessed.
God, i wana be like Abraham or like Noah who obeyed you! Sadness does weigh my heart down, since Every single NEE2 member has a place in my heart. However, we still could meet up in Prata house or Shawn's Shelter to fellowship and empower.
Remember dudes, im always 8 digits away..
gan ka wan duan(mixed emotions)
luke.
