today i just came back fr BBQ at ECP, pit number 79G. It's the most ulu place/location to hv BBQ with lots of half naked guys, wings and charcoal.
i suppose to stay in toge with my CPL friends, but apparently i failed my driving test for the THIRD time. So pc ask me go home to rest and reflect a little on my mistakes. WHAT a great blessing to have such a wonderful pc! really thank God for this grace and providence!
One of these days i'll blog abt how blessed im to have such a fantastic pc. Anyway, for the BBQ actually i don't wanna go, bcos im too ashamed to see my friends and commanders. I have had let alot of ppl down man. I disappoint Eni Ahmad too, as he came all the way down jus to conduct Islandwide with me, so confident that i'll pass...
When i failed thrice, my instructor almost kill me. He threatened to give me extra RT. He kept fking, insulting and accusing me, until my welling point. I almost went somewhere to cut myself or commit suicide man. It was so unbearable, as in the pressure! As a result, when i left in a cab on tue morning, for im late for JEEP (due to stress-> lack of rest), I actually LOST MY HP! To think i thank the uncle and gave him some tips, how could he be so ungrateful? Why will anyone steal my useless, non camera phone? Without my hp, how am i going to be contactable?
Life just sucks at this point of time. Hope that some good will result for all these mess..
