Why June? Or why is there so much to do in the month of June?
In this month alone, I have 3 guard duties plus burnt a full weekend; due to a Combat Shoot, which I could not afford marksmanship ($200). Despite having such a hectic month, because of ATEC stage 1, there are still tons of things to do.
Physically, there are already 3
IPPT tests and 1 SOC test. I could only attend the 1st
IPPT, which i obtain a full 25 points Silver, shy of 30s to get the coveted Gold ($200) award.
Burning weekends could mean some weakening to my health, both spiritually and physically. I could never recover from sleeping during weird hours in these 3 consecutive weeks.
Officially, I burnt 3
Sundays! In addition, during the weekdays, there seems to have unfinished business everyday. It's very suffocating.
My prayer life, although increases, as I had made many desperate prayers, yet it does not aid in bringing nearer to God. I find myself cursed more in my mind within these weeks.
Life is so tough! I am forever pondering whether to be successful, as it could amount to more work (''
SK"). But ("CK") or rather
feigning weak could be a form of lying, or not been salt and light. God, when can i take a breather?
I need you more than anything. Please sustain me, grant me my daily bread, Oh sovereign Lord.
