Live for the audience of one.
Indeed, the above statement is especially hard to live up to, esp when one's getting older and more mature. Throughout my 2 years in NS, I try to live up to this mantra, but it was never easy. On one hand, i wanna live for God, but ppl are forever trying to test my limits and force my carnal nature out. I always thought going out of NS and entering worklife, would made life easier. Instead, I ended up compromising more. As in, sometimes u wanna do wat is right, yet in order to save time (n ur ass sometimes), I jus kept quiet and followed suit.
However, by constantly mediating on God and praying, i realised that during those rash and uncomfortable moments I tend to curse less in my heart. Maybe perhaps I'm more tolerant to the prepare, as usually I'll either say sth nasty and regretted it aft or i jus backed off n sweared in my heart. The latter default mechanism is in-built since army days, when u r flooded with crude and vulgarities.
Personally, Fasting does works for me. Whenever the hunger pangs, you will tend to think of food, but when u realised u r spending the day fasting, u'll naturally pray. As a result, u will not want to be so unspiritual, as u r more aware of God, as if he's watching my every step, word or intention. Thus, I would say i did live for Him, for that instance.
This is exactly wat happened today. In order to prepare ourselves spiritually for ID conference, my tg aka cg decided to Fast n Pray to
1) Prepare ourselves for the conference
2) Fun n Fellowship
3) Greater dependency and obedience to God and Holy Spirit.
I'm really looking fwd to a time of Fun n Fellowship. May the lord continue to bless me n my tg.
Thank you.
